saya pernah dengar perkataan, "there are people who stay for reasons, and there are people who leave for lessons."

i used to think it was exactly the most right thing i wanted to here in particular time, tapi these days, saya menyadari, bahwa mereka yang enggak leave pun bisa ngasih lesson.

bukan, bukan advices mereka atau pengalaman mereka yang kasih lesson.

harus saya katakan bahwa

people that we love so much that hurt us too much. they left not only wounds, but also lessons. they teach something.

in my case sesuatu yang saya akhirnya pelajari adalah bagaimana terkunci pada definisi hanya akan membuat kita berakhir pada kesakitan dan luka yang lebih dalam.

tidak, saya tidak bermaksud melebih-lebihkan.

logic flow-nya seperti ini:

ketika kita terjebak dalam kesombongan kepala untuk terus mengejar-ngejar sebuah definisi dari kondisi yang sedangg kita alami, idealisme-idealisme secara acak akan muncul di kepala, yang sama dengan munculnya ekspektasi berlebih akan satu hal, lalu ketika kita membandingkan definisi yang sudah tercipta dari idealisme ketinggian itu, kita hanya akan berakhir pada kekecewaan.

sekedar menjalani mungkin akan cukup.

tapi biar bagaimana pun juga, there's main lesson yang saya dapatkan:

troubles teach us not to any longer depend on the others, even to those whom we expect and believe will always keep saying, "go get your dreams!"

sometimes, those who care too much about us are persons we never expect too. that's the lovely point.

perhaps the problem of that disappointing fact is: we've already set up a very high expectation to certain persons (consider as the loved ones), but they just do love in just the way they want to, not the way we've set up.

or perhaps, worst possibility: they really never care.

and it's fine.

i have ever been in such situation, when some close persons which i believe can accept me just the way i am, just NEVER ever appreciate what i do. i've tried so much in achieving things, big things. and they were all just ,"oh" ; when people i'm not really close with just responded, "you did a great works!!"

when i thought about it, i blamed myself of being so hurt by not being appreciated. but i finally realized that appreciation is needed!

it's not because you don't do things sincerely; it's just because appreciation, even the simple ones, can be a sign that what you've done really mean something to other people. that's the point.

that's my goal : to do things that people need. to do things that people will really happy with.

their appreciations tell me that my effort ever mean something.

i wonder why some people, my loved ones, can't accept that what i do is exactly what i want to do.

they judge me for things i do that they aren't interested with, when those things are what i could get joy from!

yea, can we just say that there are still people who're having modern mindset, which is the misconception of UNITY?

yes, call yourself as modern people.

but we are know in post-modern era, folks.
diversity that matters.

can't imagine why some people are still seeing difference as a sin.

tanya

kenapa

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